Katatonia - Had To (Leave)

So you were with us until the last minute
And then you were gone from here
And i watched and i just figured out
That i will never see you again

I had a choice
You had to leave
Into the night
This was my choice

It's so hard to explain what i meant
When i said that i wanted you dead
But i saw you fuck up and i just can't get back
The feeling i had for you

So i put all my strength into my only will
It was the only thing to do
And now i only regret that i cried
Cause you would never do that for me